Wednesday, November 10, 2010

God's Faithfulness thru our Homestudy!

Praise the Lord, our home study has come and gone. It seemed pretty surreal. The reason is because adoption is something Heath and I always felt we would do, much like most people probably. But is it something I thought we would actually do before are biological children were grown and maybe even out of the house? I don't know. I knew the desire was there, but I had absolutely no idea what that looked like and how in the world is was going to play out.

So for this woman to be sitting in our home, completing our home study, a surreal feeling come over me that this is actually happening. I can't believe it's actually happening.

Is it happening in my timing? No. Is it happening under circumstances I would prefer? No. But nevertheless, it is happening and the Lord has deeply rooted in my heart for the past 9 months a joy and calling for this.

Let me explain to you the events leading up to the home study days before.

I got a call on Friday, October 29 that are home study is scheduled for November 8. I freaked because that only gave us a little over a week to prepare and we were NOT ready at all. Heath and I were currently in one bedroom and needing to move all of our stuff to another bedroom because we felt the bedroom we were currently in would be better suited for foster children. We had to then clean the room we came from and set it up as if children were coming at any moment (crib, toddler bed, daybed). We had to clean the house. We had to lock up all medicines. We had to organize closets. The list went on and on and on and I quickly, within seconds of hanging up the phone that Friday, became instantly overwhelmed.

I did have some sense, surprisingly enough in that moment, to pray and tell God, if you are planning it for that day, then you will work all this out for us to get done.

Because it wasn't this never-ending list of stuff to do that had me totally overwhelmed, it was mine & my husband's schedules for the next 10 days also. We had literally one of the busiest weeks of our lives leading up to November 8. So in my head, there just wasn't enough time in the day, unless I did not sleep for 10 days. I'm so serious.

I'm going to tell you my schedule, but at the end it's going to be a great moment of AHA!
October 30 - Different bday parties/church parties all day.
October 31 - Play on the worship team for church, which means at church from 7:00a.m. till 1:00p.m. Then halloween was that night. So spent entire afternoon getting all of our costumes ready.
Nov. 1 - Pretty open day to get stuff done. Thankfully!
Nov. 2 - Worked until 5:15p.m. Worked very hard that evening to get stuff done.
Nov. 3 - At church from 8:15a.m. to 8:30p.m. Got nothing done that day.
Nov. 4 - Worked until 5:15p.m. Worked very hard that evening.
Nov. 5 - Open day to work on stuff!
Nov. 6 - Women's conference at church, which I was in charge of the worship team. So at church from 7:00a.m. to 5:45p.m. Then totally exhausted when I got home.
Nov. 7 - Play on worship team so at church from 7:00a.m. to 1:00p.m. Had evening service that night (which we rarely have) so was at church again from 5:30p.m to 8:00p.m.
Nov. 8 - Home study lady comes at 9:00a.m.!

I wanted to show you this because I was so sure that this was the absolute worst timing for us to have our home study. The absolute worst. When I opened up my calendar, to see what the next 10 days held, I thought there is no way! I even tried to get out of it, but the director of our agency really encouraged me to keep the date.

Our Women's conference Saturday was called Generations. We had 5 speakers from 5 different generations from our church speak. The theme was how God has been faithful to them through their life.

Are you catching my aha moment? As I sat through almost 5 hours of listening to these women, whom I love, speak about the ups and downs of their lives and the hugeness of God's faithfulness, I wanted to weep.

At the end of the day on Saturday, I was on to God. :-) I knew what He was trying to get through my thick skull. That He is faithful. It wasn't by chance that this was planned on the busiest week I've had in a long time. It was a gentle or not so gentle reminder that God is faithful. And He will supply all my needs. And He did that through a very good friend/mentor of mine gifting us with a team of cleaning ladies to come in and clean our house on Saturday while I was at the Women's conference. He did that by having close friends that came over and helped me organize. He did that by allowing my husband and I time, even though it was not much, this week to move all of our bedroom stuff over. He did that by having a mom and mother-in-law that helped watch Ella. He did that by having countless people praying for us.

There were so many opportunities for me to see His faithfulness throughout those 10 days, I'm so glad that I did. Help me not to forget Lord, the next time something seems impossible or overwhelming.

The home study was great! There are just a couple of things we need to do to our house, but that's it. It will still be a little bit before we are officially licensed. We still have another inspection and some more paperwork, but we are definitely one HUGE step closer with this behind us.

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K said...

Congratulations! (Also, I think you are reading exactly the two books you need to be in preparation - The Connected Child & Crazy Love...perfect).

Immeasurably More Mama said...

He is faithful. Amen!

connorcolesmom said...

Thank you LORD for your faithfulness!!!
I was praying for you all this morning and really look forward to seeing what God has in store for your family. It is going to be such a blessing!
Much love

Tara G. said...

Beautiful- what an awesome testimony!! And what a neat conference theme!!

Kelli said...

I can't even get over how BIG AND GOOD GOD is!!

This post made my heart so full for you guys!!!

Continuing to pray!

Helen said...

I love watching you through this journey, and seeing how God has this all planned out for you - he always has.